The scan has been taken

Anxiety arrived

Will it change my treatment

And thus, my life?

If bad things have happened

(the cancer has spread)

They said the road that leads to

Will be I am dead.

Trying so hard

To not overthink

But that can be tricky

It seems.

My life, I know,

Is not in my hands,

But I really wonder

What is the plan…

I haven’t done 

all the things I should,

Loved long enough, hard enough

Or done it real good.

Will there be a place

For me when this is done—

Will I be welcomed

By God because of His Son?

(three month scan to see if the bladder cancer has spread….)